Hello Fall!! What a change in the weather. You guys…. We made it to October!!! We made it to week 25! We passed milestone #1!!!
We made it to October…. Next month…. We will have 2 babies!!
We made it to October…. In less than two weeks I’ll move in to the hospital!!
We made it to October…. WOW!!
As crazy as this whole experience has been it has gone by incredibly FAST! I mean, I was just enjoying a few margaritas for Cinco De Mayo last month and now these little miracles are about to arrive. I started reading an “Expecting Twins, Triplets, and Quads” book last week and it is packed full of so much information. A lot of stuff I wish I had known earlier but better late then never. I am a Why person. I will do something if it is asked of me, but eventually I will want to know why I am doing it that way, so this book and other research has been very beneficial to me.
I have also learned that Dr Drake is hilarious! She was the specialist we met with last week to go over the twins and what our plan will look like going forward According to all the images and data, both babies look amazing, Praise God!! She said their cords are in a big messy pile but the blood flow to all the vital areas were good and strong. Baby B apparently has a “juicer” cord (that is the term the sonographers used) and that is how they have been telling the two apart from week to week. Thursday and Friday I got my first round of steroid treatments to help with the babies lung development. Dr Drake said I would get 2 rounds of steroids, one round happened last week because if they have to do an emergency c-section prior to 32 weeks then the babies have had at least one full treatment, and she will schedule another round of steroids around 30-31 weeks.
Then came the discussion of when to move-in. As it was explained to me early on they want mono mono twins admitted between 24-26 weeks. My OB was suggesting the latest I could go in would be best for my mental state and it would be less stress on the babies….that is if everything is going good…. Which it is! Dr Drake said I was not allowed to go beyond the end of the 27th week…. So I picked Monday, October 15th- 27 weeks 2 days. I feel good about this. She really wanted it to be our decision. A decision that John and I felt good about. A decision that once I start packing my bags I am “ok” with. I have never had a long hospital stay before, but she keeps telling me it is all about my mindset, so I’ll make the best of it while I’m there.
Have you ever heard of the term AMA? Or Against Medical Advice? I am definitely not doing that, I would move in tomorrow if that is what the specialist deemed best… but I am however pushing the limit with the ADA… Against Dad Advice. If this whole thing were up to my dad, I would have moved in two weeks ago. I do feel the doctors have a safe handle on everything and I have a pretty awesome God who has gotten us this far, he’ll keep them safe for another 7 weeks.
When going in-patient (and really life in general) it comes down to the unknown that can be scary….. What is monitoring going to be like? How often will John be able to come down? Will I be alone all day? I am pretty social, so who will I talk to all the time? My DOGS, when will I get to see my dogs? Will they even remember who I am or will they think I’ve abandoned them? Halloween… will I get to see my nieces and nephew all dressed up??? (They’re probably too old for that but who knows?) Do we have everything we need for two babies?? Is the house completely ready?? And then the unknown of surgery…. Oh my Lord…. Two words…. Epidural and catheter…. Two things that have me so concerned, and mostly because I don’t know much about them, so while I’m in-patient I want to do a ton of research on them… oddly, then I’ll feel better and have an idea of what to expect. And the final unknown…. Being parents!! Does it just happen?? Does it come natural to some and not to others? All I know is I can’t wait to hold my babies. I want to look in their eyes and give them the world! I want to be their safe place. I want to hear their heartbeats from the outside. I want to hold their little hands as they try to take their first steps. I want to read them bedtime stories and rock them to sleep. I want to wake up multiple times a night and just look at their little, perfect faces. I want to hear their cries and try to take away all of their pains. The unknown is huge…. What if, what if, what if….. My mind could go on forever making lists of things I am unsure about. But… that is life. And as uncertain as this life is, we will make it through. Together. And as a family.
So, as you keep pushing forward in life don’t let the unknown paralyze you. Check the calculated risk, but then close your eyes and jump!
The twins’ are so blessed with awesome friends and family already. We truly appreciate all the kind words, thoughts and prayers. They are growing and so far with no complications!! Your prayers are working people!!